Very few things have changed since Mike got out of the Army. He is still up and out of the house by 5:30 in the morning and he still gets home around 6:00 or 7:00 every night. He still comes home exhausted, plays with London, eats dinner, and then falls asleep on the couch. It's life as usual around here. Yes, some of the bigger stuff has changed. I don't have all of the worry anymore. I know he won't have to deploy and we don't have to plan our life around his training schedule. Things have changed, I have changed.
Mike was gone last week. He left on Monday morning to go to TN for business. No big deal, nothing crazy, nothing dangerous, but he was still gone. I remember when I was an Army wife, I always wanted to cause physical harm when one of my civilian friends complained about their husband being gone for a few days. I wanted to shake them and scream, "It's a freaking week! It's also probably the only week this year that he will be gone! Toughen up, put on your big girl panties, and quit complaining to ME!" To an Army wife, it's like the ultimate sin for a civilian to complain about their husband leaving for a few days. It's right up there with telling a infertile "Just relax". You.Just.Don't.Do.It.
It wasn't until Friday morning, that I realized I am officially THAT GIRL now. I woke up that morning and all but squealed in delight at the idea of Mike's "homecoming". Yes ladies, I said it. "HOMECOMING!?!?!" I started to think about a cute outfit that I wanted to wear and about getting my hair cut and nails done. WTF is wrong with me? Back in the day his return from such a short time away wouldn't even warrant me shaving my legs. This time though, I wanted to make signs for the door. Seriously, that thought really crossed my mind. How did I change this much in only a few months? I actually sat in my car as I drove home from dropping him off at the airport and almost broke into tears when I realized I had to watch Glee alone...for one week, not the entire season...just ONE WEEK! I wanted to tweet about it but I quickly decided it was in my best interest to keep that to myself. I felt/feel some serious guilt for having these emotions. I just can't help it. I guess being a civilian again has changed more than just Mike. I know, I suck!
I feel the need to apologize to all of my Army wife readers. I know I didn't write a whole "Woe is me, my husband has been gone for 36 hours" post but I thought it. That in itself is bad enough.
I promise I will try to be better. I promise I will try not to be That Girl again. This is my life now though. I feel like I turned in more than just my ID Card when Mike got out. Bear with me as I try to figure all of this out.
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