Seriously people why can't I get my act together?
What is going on with us? Where do I even start?
The other day I had a total emotional meltdown. Ok that seems like a great start!
You wanna know why I never blog anymore?
Its because I am a freaking crazy woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Let me walk you through a day in my life.
6:30 am: One of the girls wake up and I RUSH out of bed to get her and nurse her so she doesn't wake the other one.
7:00 am: Holden wakes up and starts babbling through the monitor, thus waking up the other baby.
7:15 am: I stand in my kitchen leaning over my sink and CHUG a coke hoping it gives me the energy to go upstairs to get Holden before he starts crying.
7:30 am: Feed Holden breakfast, while juggling Greysen and Harper. Holding whoever is crying at the moment.
8:00 am: London wanders down stairs and demands a juice cup while I'm holding a baby in one hand, nursing a baby in the other hand, and bouncing Holden on my feet. I roll my eyes and tell him to "WAIT!"
8:00 - 11:00 am: Listen to Holden scream about one thing or another, while the girls snooze in their swings and CHUG 2 cups of coffee, praying for patience and energy.
11:30 am: Finally remember to get London his juice cup, and say "Crap, London do you want some breakfast?"
12:00 noon: Halleluja!!
ALL THREE KIDS LITTLE KIDS GO TO SLEEP AT THE SAME TIME!
12:01 pm: Park London in front of the computer to watch Minecraft videos for some MUCH needed quiet time.
From 12:02 -6:29 pm: Juggle the girls, guard them from Holden, BEG London to be gentler while playing with Holden, console Holden when London fails, dig dog food out of Holden's mouth, blow alternating raspberries on Greysen and Harper's stomachs. Breastfeed two babies while helplessly watching Holden dump out a bag of goldfish, then snatch London's cheese, and feed it to the dog. Console London because Holden fed his snack to the dog. Count down the seconds until 6:30 pm (Bed time for the three little ones) and lust over the bottle of the wine in the fridge.
6:31 pm: Pour the worlds biggest glass of wine.
Ok so now....back to my total emotional breakdown.
A few weeks ago, I had this bright idea to take all 4 kids to the zoo. My two friends were going with me, so I wasn't all that out numbered. I mean the 3 of us could juggle our 8 kids right?
During this trip, I lost Holden! Ok so I didn't actually lose him, but I did forgot about him. And if it wasn't for my friend, I would have left him behind at the giraffe exhibit. I completely walked away, and was moving right along to the zebras, when I heard her 20 feet behind me say "Um, Aly...are you going to get Holden?"
Total Mommy failure, it scared the crap out of me that I could have forgotten him so easily. I vowed never to leave the house again with all 4 kids. If Mike was with me it would be different.We can divide and conquer. Alone...I can't keep up!
So I had a total emotional melt down that I was now essentially sequestered to my house with 4 small children!
My dear husband came to my rescue and WE HIRED HELP!!!
Where is Carlton again?
Yes that is right...every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday from 9-12 I have the most amazing women EVER who helps me. She takes care of the kids AND cleans my house. AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can not tell you how amazing it is to have some freedom back. I can go to the grocery store...ALONE! Run errands...ALONE! Take a shower...ALONE!!!
Notice a trend?
I feel like a new woman.
Maybe now I will have more time to blog?