Thursday, December 6, 2012

Survival!!!!!


Phew! It feels so good to be back! To say things have been a little crazy over the last 7 weeks would be a TOTAL understatement. Having 4 kids is CRAZY!!! 

So I have alot to catch you up on so lets go back a few weeks. 
On Oct 19th our beautiful twin girls were born. 

Here is my last belly picture before they were born! 
36w2d with Twins 
I can not believe I was ever that big!
Since Greysen was born vaginally and Harper was born via emergency c-section, I had one hell of a recovery. Thankfully all of my family and friends were AMAZING and provided us with meals for 2 weeks! 
This is where I spent most of those first 2 weeks (before Mike had to go back to work) 

The boys have done REALLY well with adjusting to the girls. 

Sweet Holden LOVES them and kisses them every chance he gets. That kiss is usually preceded by a headbutt and followed up with a slap in the face. 
But hey, A KISS IS A KISS!!

London is a little less enthusiastic. Sure he loves his baby sisters but he has only held them once. 

When the girls were born they looked EXACTLY alike. To the point that when we left the hospital, we painted Greysen's nails so we wouldn't mix them up. We even thought about having them tested to see if they are identical, however as time passes they look less and less alike.  They were Di/Di twins so more then likely they are fraternal, but there is still about a 25% chance they could be identical. 

Greysen Elizabeth

Harper Elliot

Harper and Greysen

More Recent , this was last week when they were 6 weeks old. 

OK, so now to the GOOD STUFF!

Having four children this close in age is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo 
 HARD! No I didn't just fall asleep on the "o" key (I needed to clarify that because I am so tired these days,  that there is always that possibility). I am in 100% survival mode. Let me tell you a little something about having kids. When you have one you think.."Omg, this is so hard. I can't imagine having two kids". Then when you have two kids you think..."Omg, how did I ever think one kid was hard. This is freaking impossible" Then 11 months later when you end up with baby number 3 and 4 you think..."Omg, Screw it! Is it time to drink yet?"


Simple things like taking that adorable one month picture, become such a task that you end up doing it 10 days late. And then instead of the 75 pictures you take in hopes of getting that perfect shot like you did with the first two kids...you take this picture while screaming "Holden stop eating those cheerios you just found under the couch cushion...oh hell, never mind you're quiet, keep eating." Look down check the picture and say "GOOD E-DAMN-NOUGH"

You eventually learn that it is really a successful day as long as all 4 children are alive and unharmed at bedtime. So what if London's diet consisted of 4 nurtigrain bars and a hotdog. He ate right. So what if I started crying when all four kids were crying for almost 2 hours straight. The day eventually ended, right about the time Mike got home and I chugged a glass of boxed wine out of a red solo cup. We survived RIGHT! So-freaking-what if I bribed Holden with a ring pop to quietly sit in his high chair for 30 mins so I could change and nurse the girls without fear of flying toys nailing them in the head. SO WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!


At the end of the day we are all happy, healthy, and in my case....slightly buzzed. 
(Yeah and I give the girls a nightly bottle of formula....SO WHAT!!!)


It's these moments that make it all worth it. 




This is our CRAZY life now and we are surviving and LOVING every minute of it!

And I don't even have time to proof read this post...
SO WHAT!

Saturday, October 20, 2012

The Girls Have Arrived!

Greysen Elizabeth and Harper Elliot arrived yesterday weighing in at 5lbs11oz and 5lbs8oz respectively.

To say it was a traumatic delivery would be an understatement. Greysen arrived quickly and easily via vaginal delivery, Harper however had her own plans. She flipped transverse and tried coming out sideways (left arm and left leg first) the dr had to shove her back in and the try to flip her. I'm not exaggeration when I say the Dr was elbow deep in me for about 10 minutes. Finally they knocked me out and gave me an emergency csection to get Harper out. We are all doing really well,but I'm in ALOT of pain.

The girls have done great and did not have to go to the nicu. They are so cute and look just like each other. If they have the same blood type, we are going to have them tested to see if they are identical.

They look just like London, and even have his red hair!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

35 weeks

So here we are at 35 weeks! I can't believe it! Lets see, I think another update is required.

First of all last week, at 33w6d, my Dr sent me to the hospital for 2 nights. I had gone from being 2cms dilated at 32 weeks to 4cms at almost 34 weeks. Add that to the fact that I was having contractions every 2-3 mins and that was enough to earn me a hospital stay and some steroid shots for the girls lungs. Thankfully things slowed down and I was allowed to go home 2 days later.

At my 34 week appt (a few days after coming home from the hospital) I found out that baby b (Harper) had flipped and is now breech. Ugh, my Drs are still going to let me try a vaginal delivery since baby A (Greysen) is still head down, but baby b being breech will complicate things if they can't get her out after Greysen is delivered. I may just end up with the double whammy and have one vaginally and one via csection. I can't even begin to think about that recovery.

I'm also 5 cms dilated now. My dr was shocked to see me at my 35 week appt. but apparently these girls are comfy. As uncomfortable as I am, I would really like them to stay put at least until 36 weeks so that we can dodge the NICU. The drs are going to induce me on the 19th if they haven't arrived by then. That is exactly one day before Holden's first birthday. Since we will be in the hospital for his birthday, we'll throw him a little party in a few weeks, thank goodness he doesn't know the date yet!

I went yesterday and got my hair and toes done, so the girls are officially allowed to come now!

Sorry this update is so choppy, my computer is down right now so I'm updating from my phone.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

The Home Stretch

So I know I have been horrible about updating my blog recently but to be totally honest just walking to the bathroom is almost more than I can handle these days.

I am now 33 weeks pregnant with the twin girls! I seriously can not believe we have made it to this point. And WITHOUT BED REST!! This has been so wild. After 2 IVF miracle little boys, the fact that we got pregnant with twin girls (when I was only 3 months postpartum) is still blowing my mind to me. However now that we have made it all the way to 33 weeks, after 2 high risk pregnancies with a total of almost 30 weeks on bed rest, to escape this pregnancy with almost no preterm labor...is a freaking MIRACLE!

I've started having ALOT of contractions over the last few days though, so maybe I am celebrating a little to soon.

Let's see...at my 32 week appt Baby A (Greysen) was breach, and Baby B (Harper) was transverse. UGH! I am REALLY hoping to dodge a csection here, so I NEED baby A to be head down in order to even attempt a vaginal delivery. At 32 weeks they were both measuring on the large side, weighing at 4lbs 9oz so I was super happy about that. Big babies always do better if they have to go to the NICU.

Today I got a real treat and both of them were head down! WOOOHOOOOOO!!! Baby A's head is engaged, so we are hoping she won't flip again. I'm also 2 cm dilated already. My Dr says that she will throw us a party if we can make it to at least 35 weeks, although 36/37 weeks would be ideal.

As miserable as I am right now, I definitely do not want to spend any time in the NICU, so I'm trying to keep them in as long as possible (as if I have a real choice in when they arrive).

Here is a belly pic of me at 32 weeks, I was officially measuring at 42 weeks gestation, however it feels more like 52 weeks.

I realize that I don't look too big in this picture. So I included the next picture from my baby shower as proof. 

No, that is not a house with a turkey neck, that is me at 32 weeks chatting at one of my AWESOME baby showers. 


So that is enough from me now, mainly because I need to head to bed, so I am publishing this WITHOUT proof reading. So you can go ahead and expect more errors that usual. I'm sure my sister Jennifer will call me with the corrections later. I'm not sure how we are related since she is such a stickler for spelling and grammar. :)



Wednesday, August 8, 2012

26 weeks and a lot of catching up to do.

OMG, I have gone almost two months without posting. I'm pretty sure this is a whole new level of  "disappearing".

I'm going to admit, I have no drive to blog these days. It's horrible and I wish I was better but so many more things come before my blog right now. Any yes, I'm talking about these two monkeys...

Notice Holden's new haircut! 
Before: 

And After: 
Ugh, he looks like such a big boy!

Here is a little update about Holden, aka: Holdy-Holds, aka: Tootsy Pooter, aka: Toosie. At 9 months old and 20 lbs now, he is all over the place. He is standing on his own, and cruising between furniture. He tries so hard to get up and go with London and frankly gets pretty annoyed when he can't keep up.

He and London are really starting to play together, its so freaking cute. You have to keep an eye on London though, he tends to get pretty rough forgetting that Holden is still a baby. Holden is one tough cookie though and rarely cries. Not a single tear was shed when London left a big bruise on his forehead by throwing a Gerber Puffs container across the room. Who knew a plastic container could be such a dangerous weapon in the hands of a 3 year old.

London is CRAZY as usual and spends most of his days either playing Angry Birds, begging to play Angry Birds, or playing real life Angry birds with his blocks and toy birds. Combine that with his Plants vs Zombie obsession, and we have a real gamer on our hands. I can only imagine how hard it's going to be to pry him away from his games as a teenager. As you can imagine our little trip to Chuckie Cheese was pure heaven for a gamer like him. Although he still made some time for the Monster Truck, he definitely did NOT appreciate me taking pictures of him while he was in it. 


These two monkeys have also kept me extremely busy recently...

Here are the twins at 25 weeks. 

Greysen Elizabeth

AND

 Harper Elliot 
(finally she has a middle name) 

I'm 26 weeks now...and in some ways this pregnancy has been my easiest. But in MOST way this has been the most difficult pregnancy EVER!

Here I was last week.

First off the easy parts: NO BED REST!!! (yet!) 
While my cervix is measuring short (the main reason I was put on bed rest with Holden), its nothing too drastic and is actually longer than it was last pregnancy. However I think there is an explanation for that. Last pregnancy, I felt great and London and I were trying to keep busy over the summer by almost daily taking trips to the zoo and children's museum. However this pregnancy I can barely walk so needless to say I have been taking it very easy over the last few weeks. I also have not had much preterm labor. By 24 weeks with both boys I had been hospitalized for at least a few days with contractions. Not this time though. Sure I have had some contractions, but nothing some water and laying on my left side can't fix. 

The hard parts: I CAN'T FREAKING WALK! I am seriously falling apart. I'm like a 90 year old woman over here. I have  Pubic Symphysis Diastasis or in other words my pubic bone/hips feel like they are about to snap in half. Add that to the fact that I get heart burn just from drinking a glass of water. I've also had like 3 or 4 blood vessels in my eyes pop. So I have red eyes and look like I'm stoned half the time. It's pretty awesomeful. I already feel like I'm 35 weeks pregnant, and can barely roll over in the middle of the night. But who needs to roll over when you have to sleep sitting up. UGH!!! Okay I'm done whining (for now)!

Anyway, I'm forgetful and exhausted all the time (Okay so maybe I wasn't done whining) which is why I haven't been posting recently but I'm HOPING to get better about it soon. Oh who am I kidding?  I'm about to have 4 kids under 4, and 3 under 1. This is only going to get worse over the next 12 months. I'll do the best I can though. Especially in the up coming weeks as I prepare for the girls arrival.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Disappearing Act!

First off I want to apologize for my disappearing act over the last few weeks. As you can all imagine, I've been VERY busy! Something about having a VERY ACTIVE 3 year old, an ADVENTUROUS 8 month old, and being almost 20 weeks pregnant with twins has been keeping me busy.

Holden is all over the place now, he is crawling everywhere and pulling up on anything he can reach. Which of course means he falls about 50 times a day. As many times as that poor kid cracks his head, he has to have a headache by bedtime every night.

Not even the dog is impressed anymore. 

London has been going CRAZY recently. He is officially out of preschool for the summer so he is BORED if we don't go somewhere and do something every single day. As you can imagine I am exhausted and don't feel like dragging both kids out in the blazing South Carolina heat every day.  So I have had to get pretty creative recently.

Yes my kid is using tape to pretend he is a mummy! 
SO WHAT! It kept him busy for nearly an hour. Totally worth the $1 I wasted on scotch tape. 

The twins are doing well! We are still in shock that it's twin girls. I am refusing to get rid of my boy clothes yet, for fear that one or both of them will sprout something at the 20 week ultrasound. I have however started buying some pink stuff. It's so surreal. This has been the wildest ride of my life. I have started feeling them ALOT over the last few weeks too. Although I can't really feel the difference between being pregnant with one vs two yet. Here is a horrible belly picture  from 18 weeks.
I guess that is my update for now! Holden just woke up from his nap so my free time is OVER! :)

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

It's Two....

GIRLS!!!

I can not even begin to wrap my mind around the idea of having two girls! We are sooooooooooooo stinking excited and thrilled to be finishing our family with two miracle little girls.

So introducing...

Greysen Elizabeth 
Aka: Baby A

AND

Harper (middle name not yet determined) 
AKA: Baby B

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Randomness

Well tomorrow is the big day! We find out (hopefully) what gender the babies are. I am so stinking excited I can hardly wait. I don't care what they are. When I first got pregnant I really never thought I would be able to say that. It was no secret that I want a daughter. But after finding out your are pregnant with naturally conceived twins after years of infertility treatments, I can honestly say I will be happy with whatever God gives us.  I'm just excited to KNOW and start planning. Patience is not my forte.

I have been a really sucky blogger recently. My life is just so crazy and BORING! The boys have been keeping me busy. And while I'm feeling better and have more energy, I'm still in bed by 9 every night.  Holden has really started crawling and even pulling up on stuff. I have no idea how my little boy has gotten so big. Spoken like a true mom, right? London is so well...LONDON. Crazy as ever!

Our life is super boring, yet there is never a dull moment. Maybe I'm just in a blog funk right now. I feel like nothing is "blog worthy". And I'm way too lazy to upload pictures, so even wordless posts are out.

Here are a few fun facts for ya:

1) I'm getting an Iphone next week. It's a huge step for me as I am a complete android fan. However I've had my phone for almost 2 years and Android has yet to come out with anything any better than what I already have. I'm ready for a change and Iphone seems like a HUGE change. Hopefully I don't regret it! I'll miss Flash, and I'm not really a fan of Apple anything, but I want something NEW!

2) I've been reading and ALOT recently. Humm, maybe that is why I haven't been posting. I just finished The Fifty Shades of Grey series. I have to say I really liked it, way more than I expected too. I definitely could have done without a sex scene every 10 pages. I eventually started just skipping through those parts. It was a book in which nothing really happens so I can't even say why I liked it so much, but I did. I read all three in about 4 days and actually when I was done I went back and reread the second one. I hear they are making a movie, and I would like to publicly throw my support behind Ian Somerhalder as Christian (you know in case Hollywood decides to consult my blog before casting.) Who can resist this smolder?

He plays a somewhat similar role bad guy/good guy on CW's Vampire Diaries, and is FABULOUS! 
When I first looked up the movie, he was one of the names that was one of the names being tossed around and now I can't imagine anyone else playing the tortured hottie, Christian Grey. 


3) Ok so now that I'm done reading Fifty Shades, I need book recommendations. I've already read the usual suspects...Hunger Games, Twilight, Mortal Instruments, and Divergent but I need something new. I'm quite fond of young adult and I love a good series. Any suggestions?

That is all from me for now! I will post ASAP tomorrow about the gender of the twins. Now I just have to fall asleep tonight without thinking about it.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

NT Scan

As you can tell by the title of this post, I had my NT Scan today. Both babies looked FABULOUS!!! They were kicking each other and doing flips. Pretty typical stuff for our family, so I am sure they will fit in really well around our house. :)

The ultrasound tech was really cranky an refused to take a peak between their legs. It would be just for fun since I definitely wouldn't trust a gender determination at 13 weeks, but she said no. She wasn't my usual lady though, so I didn't argue. At the end of the u/s she said "Well I didn't look between their legs, but I didn't see any penises flying around" HAHA! No worries though, we will be having another ultrasound on May 30th. As long as the babies cooperate we will be finding out their genders then.

A few questions I have gotten in my comments recently....what do I THINK the babies are? 2 boys. Because since I have 2 boys already it's hard to imagine actually adding a girl to this family.

What do we want? 2 healthy babies, but then again EVERYONE wants that. So if I got to choose I would pick, one boy and one girl. My logic...I don't want Holden to ever feel like the lost middle child. Can you even imagine if it's twin girls how he might feel lost in the cute twin baby girl craze. If it's a boy and girl, then Holden and the boy will be more like the twins growing up. IDK, that is just my totally crazy lady ramblings right now.

ANYWAY!!!

Here are our BABIES at 13 weeks!!
Baby A
 Baby B

Thursday, May 3, 2012

12 weeks Twins!

OMG, it has finally started to sink in that we are going to have twins. Yeah, I know we have had a while to adjust to this news, but with several miscarriages in our past we have tried to distance ourselves a bit from this pregnancy. Well today at my 12 week ultrasound, two adorable BABIES were thrown in my face (in the best possible way!) While watching the ultrasound, I witnessed my babies kicking each other in the head. Baby  B was trying to do a flip (head over feet) and Baby A was letting him/or her have it for disturbing his rest. Finally Baby B was able to flip around and dish it right back out to Baby A. It hit me at that moment, OMG I'M GOING TO HAVE TWINS! This is by far that craziest thing that has ever happened in my life. If I didn't believe in God before, there was no doubt of his existence today while watching my tiny twins first wresting match.

I prayed for these babies...while we were in the throws of infertility. I cried for these babies...each and every cycle that ended with a BFN. I fought for these babies....during both of our IVF cycles while I tried to find the time, money, and energy to add to our family. God just had other plans about WHEN these babies would arrive. He sure is a prankster!

Anyway! It's official, I'm 12 weeks now and have accepted that we are REALLY having twins. It's even Facebook official. :) I made this super cute (if I do say so myself) announcement today!


Oh and check out my new super cute header too! :) Thanks Ashley!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

What's new with you?

So yes, we have established that I am pregnant...with twins. But in case you have forgotten, I have two other kids too and it's been a while since I gave an update about them.

First there is the ever adventurous (that is the nice was of saying wild and crazy) London. 

 These days he is enjoying....

Showing off his Easter eggs while making a very awkward smile. 

And wearing tiny hats
in his defense it was his St Patrick's Day Parade at school. 
See I told you it have been a while since I uploaded pictures of the boys. 

Then there is Baby Holden, who is not such a baby anymore. 

He is now 6 months old and has learned how to do this...

and this...

Needless to say it is VERY busy around our house. 

Holden has also started sleeping better at night. THANK GOODNESS! 
Right now he is only waking up ONCE in the middle of the night. 
He must know Mommy is EXHAUSTED from gestating his siblings and desperately in need of sleep. 

On the pregnancy front: I am finally starting to feel better. I'm still exhausted, but it is manageable now. And the nausea has definitely subsided too. Eating is not pure torture anymore, which considering I have to do it every 90 mins or so, is definitely a good thing. 

Besides all of that, life is pretty much business as usual around here. 
What's new with you? 

Monday, April 16, 2012

Babies Update

Ahhh, I am so sorry for my absence! It's just that I have been SOOOOOOO exhausted. I've been asleep every night for the last 2 weeks by like 8pm. I seriously can barely function during the day. I'm one step away from being narcoleptic. Oh and the nausea...it really is twice as bad with two.

Anyway, I had my 9 week ultrasound on Friday. I was super nervous. I had loaned my doppler to a friend, because I was NOT expecting to need it for a few years hahaha! Well she was kind enough to mail it back to me. At first I couldn't find a heartbeat which worried me, but I kept trying and finally found one. Yep, just one. You can't find twin heartbeats on a doppler because they usually mask each other.

At least one heartbeat is a good sign though, I went into the appointment KNOWING at the very least that I was still pregnant. A huge plus when you have had several early m/c.

Luckily, both babies looked FABULOUS!! Both measured right on track at 9w3d. and Baby A had a heartbeat of 171 and Baby B 164. Each baby was moving around and kicking it's legs and arms. A-FREAKING-DORABLE!

The pictures from this ultrasound were REALLY crappy. She did it on the top of the tummy this time, so they were just poor quality pictures.

Since I don't have and utrasound pictures to share today, how about the first belly shot from this pregnancy? I will warn you...

1) This is a 3rd baby so I expected to show a little earlier this time.
2) I had a baby 5 months ago so I still have a belly from that pregnancy.
3) It's twins! So I'm a little bigger from that too.

Still I have no idea WHY I already look 20 weeks pregnant. 

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

SpermCheck Review and Giveaway!

FINALLY THERE IS A PREGNANCY TEST FOR MEN!! 
Well, sort of!
Amazon Photo 
(Mike refused to have his photographed, said it was gross to take pictures)

Perhaps they will sneak around behind our backs and purchase them by the dozen like we do! :) 

So ladies, are you TTC and have a shy guy?
Well this product is for you then. 
A few weeks ago I was asked to review Sperm Check Fertility. However it was really Mike who was going to have to do the reviewing.

SpermCheck is a test that allows men to test their sperm count in the comfort of their very own home. It gives you a Normal or Low result, much like a pregnancy test, by showing one line or two. Normal is considered anything over 20 million.

While Mike wouldn't allow me to take any after pictures, I did snap one before he "got started".


The test was really easy (as long as you read the directions). It's not quiet as straight forward as peeing on a pregnancy test, so don't just dump the sample on the test. 

Mike's test came back "normal" which was great! I wish that I had listened (although sperm count has never been our infertility issue in the past) because a few weeks later I became pregnant the old fashioned way with the twins. Maybe they should add a "grab a condom or get on some birth control" result to the test  if your sperm is super awesome. Just a thought HAHA!


A few fun facts about SpermCheck
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  • SpermCheck® Fertility is as accurate as lab testing – 98% accurate
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One of my favorite things about SpermCheck is they are giving away a test to one of my awesome readers.


Disclaimer: I was not compensated for this review. I was only provided with ONE test to review. All opinions expressed are strictly my own!

Monday, March 26, 2012

Has the Twins Shock Subsided for You?

No? It hasn't for us either.

I go back and forth between denial and freaking out.

Mike and I are worried about totally different things. Mike is stressing about the pregnancy. He is worried about losing one of the babies like we did when I was pregnant with London (we lost his twin at 11 weeks). Also we all know my pregnancies are not the easiest. I end up on bed rest about 24 weeks, thanks to good old preterm labor and stay there until my child comes early around 37 weeks. Now throw being pregnant with twins, and having a 3.5 year old and 9 month old into that equation. The pregnancy its self is going to be CRAZY! I totally understand where he is coming from

I, however, am freaking out about how we are going to handle things once the babies come out! I will have 3 under one! In some ways it will be ALOT like having triplets. I'm worried about the additional financial burden (I would really like to hire some help, but we will have to completely redo our budget and cut some corners to pay for help AND the additional costs of having 2 more kids.

Please don't get me wrong, we really are excited. But we are completely overwhelmed right now. This time last week I was overwhelmed by the idea of having just ONE more baby right now, and to find out its twins has just thrown me into total woman crazy mode.

Morning sickness and exhaustion has just started for me this pregnancy. It's like double of both. I wake up every morning feeling like I'm hung over. It sucks! As long as I don't allow myself to get hungry, I don't throw up.

I also forgot to mention that my next Dr Appt will be on April 13 when I am 9w2d. Wow that seems like such a long wait!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

The Biggest Surprise of my Life.

About 2 weeks ago, I got one of the biggest surprises of my life....at that point

We are pregnant. 

Wait, wait wait...allow me to finish your sentence for you....

"What? How? OMG? WTF? How the hell? Isn't Holden only like 4 months old? Weren't you breastfeeding? Didn't you do IVF to FINALLY get pregnant with your boys? OMG? What? How the hell?"

MY THOUGHTS EXACTLY! 

And if you throw in a few tears, insane bouts of laughter, and a whole lot of thinking "OMG, what the hell am I going to do with 2 babies in 12 months" then you will have reacted the exact same way I did. 

I wrote few posts when I first found out, that I will now publish (backdated, of course). I was not ready to come clean yet, and we are still keeping it very quite. But my blog doesn't count as telling people right? HAHA! We are trying to stay positive that this pregnancy will end with a baby and not a miscarriage. However given our history, that is not guaranteed. 

However today at our first ultrasound we received an even bigger surprise.
TWINS!!! 

OMG? How in the world did this happen.
 Natural Surprise Twins, after two IVF cycles. 

I almost fell off the table, when I saw those two heartbeats on the screen today at my Dr's appointment. 
I wasn't sure if I wanted to laugh, cry, or throw up. 
Finally I just had to laugh!

Today, I am 6 weeks and due on November 14, 2012 
(Holdens due date was November 9, 2011)
Both babies had a heartbeat of 120!!

Miracle? Yes! CRAZY? OMG Yes!!!!!

Mike and I are BOTH still in shock. We have been here before when I was pregnant with London, so we are cautiously optimistic that everything will work out. 

3 babies in 12 months! OMG!

If you know me IRL or on Facebook, I am NOT ready to come out of the closet yet, so please don't mention it there yet! Thanks!